What changed in year nine post injury to cause those massive 'Atomic' spasms to begin. Previous to year nine, spasms would occur, most commonly in the evening, then run their tormenting course and leave me alone until the following evening.
In my ninth year - post injury, spasms still occurred during the evening hours but now they were so powerful and violent that I felt I was being disjointed - femur ripped right out of the hip socket with each massive spontaneous contraction. The pain is excruciating!!
My wife is out of town currently for an extended stay which now allows me to let out those screams of painful torment when my left leg tries to tear itself from my hip-joint. The sciatic nerve also becomes either pinched or stretched adding further misery with each contraction. Contractions every 3 to 10 seconds, violently, painfully, for hours on end. It feels good to scream rather than to clench my teeth and grimace from a pain that brings tears to the eyes.
I feel that any effect the Baclofen had on my spasms has been lost. Do I find some neurologist and request a Baclofen pump? It seems that the only ineffective treatment is to constantly increase the dosage. An every increasing dosage that races your increasingly resistant pain to your most welcome grave.
I slept through last night. The two nights previous, spasms kept me from sleep - both days between 2:00 am and 4:00 am. Daylight doesn't wait! What will tonight bring?
I stopped living long ago. I exist...